Josh 2.5 Year Old - 2nd Quarter

Lot's of stories about our lil Josh.

In summary, he grown up lot!. He more independent than I thought. Understanding yet rebellious, Passionate yet frigid during day by day interaction with me.
Somehow I felt Josh upset with me. I'm sorry dear Josh, your mother still learn to became a good child, wife and mother and still far from perfect, did lot mistake and need to keep learning.

So here bit update of Josh action as far as I could remember ^^.

Admire him self:
Seeing his own video and starting to comment everything that he saw -> the bird, the water, bla bla bla...

Shy:
He like to run nakedly on our house. It hard to have him wear his cloths once he run away.
Then I said to him, let me take your picture naked, will you?
Ehhh, he suddenly came to me and start to wore his cloths.

Imitating:
One night he saw his daddy cut an over carpet rope. The day after, he took a scissors on the table, and when I saw it, he cut the carpet like a gardener cut the grass. Argggggg..........
(oo, Josh familiar with the scissors during our activity time and he did understand the dangerous of scissors).

He spill the water into the floor. I bring a floor mop and let him knew that he shall clean it.
Ehhh,.. he bring the mop away, when I saw it, he did clean the wet table.

Favorite thing to do:
Guess what? -> Brush his teeth!
Somehow he refuse whenever I asked him to clean him self, but when I said "Let brush your teeth"....
He arrived faster than me!.

Doing House hold cores:
Help me to wash the dishes. Love the water and bubble.
Yes, it took a longer time to finish the task, and somehow I felt bothered with him around me when I need to do it fast, but I came to think, If I didn't teach him, who will?

Could help me to put the dirty cloth into basket or washing machine, but he barely want to clean his toys. *sigh*. For this one, usually I make a game, then asked him to took all his toys back to playing room.

Cutie Josh:
When he want something, he will say "satu ajah yah, satu ajah yah - just one yah, just one yah". When he asked for the second one, he will say the similar word "satu ajah yah, satu ajah ya - just one yah".
My dear Josh, if mama keep giving you "satu ajah yah", it's means alot at the end :p


I never knew where he learn this, but he like to stand on the fence and let him head out, and shouting "Sate, satu ajah yah, sate satu ajah yah"...  Sate -skewered pieces of meat roasted over coals (xamux.com).

He barely want me to took a picture of him. But whenever we all took a picture with timer, he start to action too.


Good thing about Josh:
When he played on the playground, I saw he could wait on line. While most of other kids didn't want to wait. Hey dear, keep do the good thing okay.

Preference:
When he want to sleep, he prefer me to sleep with him (he said: mama ajah yah) -> Why? Cause he could request a song from me ^^ and he followed it.
While morning time, he prefer with his dad - may be cause he saw mommy didn't awake when he called :p

Ownership:
fuih..... i think everyday I heard a word like this "Ini mama punya, Ini papa punya, Ini auntie punya, Ini koko punya, Ini Josh josh punya, ........." - (this belong to mama, this belong to papa... etc). If you are not a person who own the stuff, he didn't allow you to take it.

Ability to tell me the activity on the book.
When we read a book, I point the picture, he will tell me shortly what the kid's do.
lagi berdoa, lagi duduk, lagi coret coret (kalo lihat orang pegang pensil warna - upss mesti diajarin lagi gambar kali yak), lagi makan, ketawa, etc....


November:

Suka heboh sendiri.
Untungnya masih mau diajak family kiss n hug.

SEdihnya, dia suka ajak pho pho main, tapi pho pho lagi sakit..
Dia naik ke tangga, sambil panggil pho pho, pho pho... biasanya pho pho nyahut dan cari dia.. kali ini pho pho tiduran di kamar..


November 28
Josh lagi main sama mama, trus lihat tempe orek telah siap, lgsg cemal cemil tempe orek, dipanggil-panggil sama grandma nya, tak disaut, duduk ajah dimeja makan sambil makan tempe :p.

Novembr 27
Josh dirumah sakit. tiba tiba teriak dari kamar mandi, ternyata tangannya sempat ketekan pintu dan dia ngk bisa keluar, akhirnya nangis deh minta tolong. Sesudah itu, tak ada lagi acara masuk ke kamar mandi sendirian. Diomongin kadang susah, mesti pengalaman sendiri.

Josh dilema - diajak papa pergi tak mau. tapi pas papanya pergi, nangis sambil tutup mukanya, akhirnya balik kejar kejar papanya lagi.

Selama Pho-pho sakit, surprisingly, tidak ada cubitan lagi kepada pho pho.
Dia paham harus sayang pho-phonya.
Mama: Josh, pho pho kenapa?
Josh: Pho pho sakit
MAma: pho pho ke dokter siapa?
Josh: Dokter sigit yah
Bisa ajah si Josh diajak komunikasi sekarang.

Pagi-pagi Josh bangun, pas mama lagi buka kulkas mau buat jus, si Josh lgsg ambil bungkusan permen mama.
Tapi dia ngk minta ke mama, dia lari ke kamar pho-pho, kasih ke pho-pho trus cium pho-pho nya... wallah.. pinter amat yak, ambil hati dulu sebelum minta dibukain permen.

Bisa bilang no-candy, but when he saw it, coulnd't get rid of it.,


November 16,
Mau egh egh...
Yah sudah, sini sama mama ke wc.
Josh: ngak, sama papa ajah. Sambil jalan ke papa.
Sudah bisa menentukan preferensi dia dengan siapa sesuai dengan kebiasaan.

November 15,
We did have a short conversation:
Josh mau makan?
Makan.
Makan apa?
Makan nasi.
sama apa?
Telur.
Trus?
sayur yah.
Trus?
hmmmm... bingung si josh mau makan apa lagi.

Josh saat berenang pertama kali terbalik, kepala badan dibawah sedangkan kaki diatas.
Tapi untungnya pas dia dibalik, dia tidak kaget. Dia cuma bilang "Keluar yah ban nya - maksudnya dia keluar dari ban"
Berendam dengan berbagai gaya, sambil terlentang, sambil berleha di ban trus ambil pasir buat main.

Afternoon time:
Josh: where is papa?
Me: Papa sleep on the room.
Josh run to the room and papa carry Josh to the bed
Josh: Nooo, papa back to sleep, and he run out, left his dad to sleep again.

To the book store, we let him choose want he want.
But he someone not insisting to one stuff, if we change it with a better one, so far he could accept it.
Will be very happy when we paid the stuff.

When mommy having a hair cut.
Pa: JOsh let's took a walk, daddy feel sleepy.
Josh: Noo, I want to be with mommy.
Ma: Pa, your child look faithful to me than you. ^^

November 14,
He could jump from the pool side and he have fun with it.

November 10
Josh kept calling me "mama elina" when he learn to remember my name.


Oktober:

Love Hi Five - kid's series

While on the phone, I asked Josh, how to loving  papa. He did it by caring the phone.

Showing of family picture to Josh. Instead teach him about calling uncle and auntie, I move forward to teach the name of each person.

Mama: Josh, this is Uncle william

Josh: uncle wilam,

Then I continue till 3 person.

I asked him again, Who is this JOsh (point to uncle)

Josh: Uncle.

Mama: what is his name?

Josh: Uncle Josh Josh :p (Ok, Josh, he is definitely your uncle.)
p.s. But now he could remember name of the person correctly.

Mama: JOsh please open the window
Josh go directly to the window and open it.
While he did it correctly, I praise him "Wow, you doing great".
Josh will gave you his shyly smile :p

Last time I left Josh with his grandpa and grandma. They bring him along when they sent Adison home to Kelapa Gading. That both brother cry when they need to say goodbye. Grandpa told us that Josh cry a long the way back home, till he saw a Oil Station. Suddenly he stop crying, and point it and told Grandpa "Pom bensin yah". GRandpa and GRandma laugh together as that's so unpredictable.

A Christmas Gift

A Christmas Gift for us is when we know that our mother could going home as our wish ^^.

Actually, we were so sure the day before that our mom will going home on Christmas day.
But when on my duty time to take care of my mom, suddenly the nurse came in and let me know that my mom should get a blood transfusion, due to her Hemoglobin was only 8.5 - while normal 11.5. (when the first day hospitalized, the Hb was only 9.5)
First reaction, I saw uncomfortable face of my mom, then I reject the blood transfusion.
Ok, the nurse was not good on communicating this. She made my mom afraid than calm her down.
I tried to think hard what the other good idea, then I asked the nurse to called doctor, is there any other treatment for this low Hb.
Doctor refuse to gave a vitamin, cause my mom iron n friend was good, the only thing, the red blood cell was down cause the chemo side effect, then the doctor said to gave an Injection of Eprex 40000iu (another expensive item).
My mom clinical condition was good at that time, no dizzy, could walk by her self, etc, the only thing that brother, she couldn't sleep the night before cause a bad dream and on early morning the nurse took a blood test. Beside that, during the stay, we forgot to bring a beetroot juice to increase the production of red blood cell. So lacking of food induce the RBC, plus lacking of sleep, probably make my mom Hb going down.
Ok, we took the injection instead of the blood infusion, considering which the comfortable way for my mom.

I was told that doctor agree to let my mom going home tomorrow.
So without any other blood test required, my mom going home with us.

Anyway, the blood test data might be helpful for us to taking any action, but we shall considering the clinical condition of the patient what might be the best and comfortable way to execute the treatment. That what I learn so far.

Merry  Christmas All ^^/

My Mom 1st Chemotherapy - the 1st Week

A first week of chemotherapy update:

Day 1 - almost 12 hours spent on the hospital

Day 2 - look like a wonder woman, could do the cook, etc. I wish my mom keep her strength for the side effect later on.
Drug: Celebrex 1 a day, Antibiotic (left from the chemo port operation)

Day 3 - Yup, the side effect started. Feeling week, and on the night, my mom felt a Muscle and Nerve pain. Still eating well.
Drug: Took anti nausea in the morning, Celebrex, and Antibiotic.

Day 4 - the muscle and nerve pain keep on going all day long. But my mom keep positive, she always done her simple exercise activity, and having a sun bathing for a while in the morning.
Drug: Anti nausea and Celebrex
! we change her food plan, and my mom sleep without air conditioner.

Day 5 - the pain slowing down now. I asked my mom to took a calcium supplement as I'm afraid she was lacking of calcium due to the vegan eating way.
Drug: Anti nausea and Celebrex
! I'm noticing that after taking one of the chemo drug - Rexta, my mom shall be stay out from cold thing.

Then, Unexpected side effect occurs.
Feeling full of Gas, Cramp, diarrhea, lower abdominal pain, suddenly came.


From chemocare.com:
Chemotherapy may also alter the normal bacterial flora that is present in the intestines. This can affect digestion and cause abdominal pain, cramping or flatulence (gas).

I always monitor my mom bowel movement and she said that only twice a day which on my mind that normal. But what I saw this afternoon after I took a nap, really not normal at all. She felt hurt.
Short message to the doctor and being given a additional drug recipe
-> Inpepsa 3*15ml
-> Buscopan 3*1 (contains 500mg paracetamol)

Day 6 - The cramp, diarrhea, lower abdominal pain keep going all the night.
Short message to the doctor and another additional medicine:
-> Immodium 2tablet each time (anti diarrhea)

Took one time and relieve the diarrhea symptom. However, the lower abdominal/stomach pain keep going.
Ok we pray may this pain just happen till tomorrow.
The worse thing about this lower abdominal/stomach pain, is because everytime it's happen, my mom felt she want to go the toilet and sit for around 20-30minutes for doing some bowel (the stool has a mucus) and till the pain go away.

Day 7 - Nothing change with the lower stomach pain.
Short message to the doctor and add one more celebrex.
You can use this Celebrex up to 400mg a day - 2 tablet.
I gave my mom in the morning and on the noon.
During the noon time, when she awake, she suddenly said all the pain goes away. She can still smile and we took a picture of her with Josh wearing a deer headcraft - ready for Christmas.

Heeee.... within half an hour, she complain the pain coming back.

Ok, this really worse, I gave her buscopan on the midnight, nothing change. Every hour she awake and go to the toilet and wait till the pain go away. I seeing the intensity of going to the toilet increasing.

Day 8, 21 December 2012 - At 5am in the morning my mom drink another dose of Celebrex. But seem the pain getting back.
See you can only took two tablet a day, but one tablet give a relief only for two hours, don't it seem the drug didn't work at all?
My mom couldn't sleep all the night, make her tired and suffer.
We called the doctor and decide to took my mom to Hospital.
! Good thing, my mom still force herself to eat. Only she said she tired and lack of sleep can make her tired to eat also, I really think being hospitalized is the best solution now.

At the hospital, they gave her an infusion of vitamin, paracetamol, etc. According to my sista, it's giving a relief of the pain.
Hey.... seem the pill drug that my mom consume at home can't be absorb well cause changes of the flora in my mom intestine imbalance.
Anyway, still wait for the doctor to diagnose.
Hope nothing serious.

Josh's Cousin - Jade Birthday

On 1st December, we were glad we could join Jade 1st birthday party ^^.

The Birthday party was Great!

Birthday Invitation card, Decoration, Children Game and a bit magic, the Food, all Great! 

Oooo.. and the party designer -> Jade's mommy - Tuillie Things.

I like the idea of having a 1st birthday party in home.

For a first year kid's, is really matter for feeling comfortable with the place, where the Home was the perfect choice to choose.

Yes, lot of work to be done, but I feel it's worth for seeing your kid's enjoy their birthday party.

(I didn't took a lot of picture, but hope the party designer update the picture soon.)

Too cute ^^.

Thanks Jade for inviting us.

Birthday Clown. Nowdays, the clown also improving, speak English.

Happy face, lot's of sweet ^^

Josh trying to blow the candle ^^

Josh's and Jade's with mom and dad.
Josh: Urgg ini kan aku punya jade.
Jade: tapi aku juga mau. Sambil tatap menatap tak rela ^^.

The Bright Blue Sky

On Last Saturday, 15th December, I was amazed by the bright blue sky.

Never seen this on Jakarta.

This was my first time to saw it on my new home.

Sitting on the veranda, glaze to the bright blue sky.

Feeling the fresh air, look at the beautiful butterfly.

What an amazing day.

Josh hide from the bright sun ^^.

Christmas Cup Cake - A present

We got a present - a set of Christmas Cup Cake on last Sunday.
My friend, Eika made that for us.
Hmmmm, love it and within an hours that cake gone into my stomach :p

Hmmm which one yah?

Sunday School - Christmas Time

On this Sunday, Josh's Sunday School celebrating the Christmas.

The Story about Jesus came to this world and died on Calvary.

I love to see Josh's face who look curious when listen to the story. 

I hope that Josh's faith could grow day by day and believe on his heart that Jesus is the True Savior.

However, during the story telling, an older boy sit next to Josh, put his hand on Josh's chair.

While my lil Josh who now's very strict about ownership, feel disturb by that boy action. He then shift that boy's hand. But that older boy keep repeat the same action.

Afraid that Josh might annoy the other kid's, I took Josh to sit with me.

Not a few minute, Josh went to his chair, and took his chair away *fuih*

Seem Josh didn't like that boy.

Then, it's came the time a praises "Selamat-Selamat Datang" which ended with "Salam-Salam". I teach Josh to shake hand with other when sing "Salam-salam" in home.

Ehhhhh, Josh came to that boy and asked him to shake hand.

From that simple act, after the activity done, that boy came to Josh and started to playing with Josh.

And yeah, you can guess, after the Sunday school, both of them run happily all over the room.

Dear My lil Josh,

When we grow older, somehow we grow harder to forgive.

Therefore, Keep remember a children heart, when you can quickly forget and forgive uncomfortable thing that someone do to you.

Mom's Birthday - 16 Dec 2012

Today we celebrating our mom's 55th Birthday.
As my mom couldn't eat birthday cake which contain lot of sugar and egg, then I tried to make something to replace the birthday cake.

Tradaaaa, I make a fruit jelly pudding - Melon as the base and put a kiwi and small piece melon as the filling. No added sugar or color.
We simply sing a birthday song and took a picture as my bro and sista coming together.

Josh kept starring at the pudding.

Josh trying to make a Peace sign ^^.

Now my lil Josh know how to do a silly act when picture was taken :p

P.S. You see the red thing on the glass? That a juice made from Beetroot, carrot, apple, spinach, and lil bit of cucumber. Feeling so fresh after drink a glass of that juice ^^/.

My mom enjoy the pudding and Josh ate a lot of it.

My Mom 1st Chemotherapy - at RSCM

13-12-2012 was the date when my mom has her 1st chemotherapy at RSCM.

The drugs was:
Rexta 150mg
Brexel 120mg
Paloxi (for anti nausea)
Leukokine (for increasing the leucocyte - white blood cell).
Price? Definitely much more expensive than a gold - you name it!. But that still moderate, I heard another name of drug which much much more expensive.
(browse mims for detail of drug information, but you need to sign up first)

We arrived at 9am, but since we must wait for the protocol, then I guess the chemo start at 11am.

My mom was accompanied by Calvin n my lil sista.
Me and josh stayed at home, cause Hospital is not a good place for children and he can't stay quiet also.

Oh, we shall finish all the administration (the payment also) before, it's a rule from the hospital.
Compare to the private hospital, we only need to put a deposit (forget how many percent from total expense) before treatment.
For the next time we shall finished the administration a day before so the chemo could start right away when we arrived since they get the protocol in hand.

How long?
6 hours for Rexta and Brexel.
Before chemo they inject the paloxi and after chemo they inject the leukokin.
Why took so long? They explained that this was my mom first chemo, therefore they slowly put in the drug, so when the allergic reaction show up, they could took an action.

Mom's body reaction?
Pee a lot. Poo a lot also, happen when my mom drink a vegetable juice and coconut water. Therefore I gave her a banana for the night meal including the 20gram whey protein drink.
For the first day, she haven't felt any nausea and that's good.

Doctor informed me that my mom will feel the drug effect after 2-3 days. Let see how's my mom condition.
Meanwhile, we keep on our food plan and hope to keep the nausea away.
We also stop the herbal for a while, except the curcumin (kunyit, kencur and temulawak) and still consume the whey protein.

Thanks God for today, we couldn't ask more.
We just pray may God give us strength to walk upon this condition.

Chemo Port - Done at RSCM!

Kita memutuskan untuk memasang chemo Port berdasarkan diskusi dengan dokter onkologi. Mempertimbangkan pembuluh darah mama yang relatif kecil, alhasil untuk menghindarkan rusaknya pembuluh darah akibat chemo, maka dipasanglah chemo port - Celsite produksi B-Brown.
Pemasangan dan penggunaan alat ini bukannya tanpa resiko, oleh sebab itu dalam memilih bagaimana cara perlakuan chemo, sebaiknya mempertimbangkan hasil konsultasi dokter + bacaan artikel + kondisi pasien.

Pemasangan Celsite dilaksanakan di ODC (One Day Care) RSCM.
Operasi dimulai dari jam 13.00 sampai 14.30. Sadar sekitar jam 15.30. Terjadi rembesan darah, sehingga perlu tambahan sedikit jahitan. Siap pulang sekitar jam 17.00

Ok, sekarang berbicara kesan terhadap RSCM yang notabene adalah rumah sakit pemerintah, boleh dikatakan semakin baik.
Pra Operasi:
Di klinik ODC RSCM diterima dengan senyum ramah (mmm kayaknya kesan awalnya RS pemerintah orangnya jutek-jutek, tapi ternyata tidak sedemikian), diberikan informasi yang jelas. Beberapa kali bertanya pun dijawab dengan baik. Walau ruang tunggu tak berAC dan bangku duduk yang seadanya, tetapi jika dilayani dengan senyum siapapun kurasa akan merasa lebih nyaman.
Pasca Operasi:
Mama diistirahatkan diruang pemulihan. Saat itu terjadi rembesan darah, namun dengan tanggap para perawat diruang pemulihan itu mengganti dan memanggil dokter. Setelah diperiksa, diperlukan tambahan jahitan kembali. Saya pribadi merasa para perawat itu ramah dan full of fun ditengah kelelahan yang ada dan tetap melaksanakan tugasnya.
Seinformasi yang kudapatkan dari brosur bahwa hanya ada dua ruang operasi untuk ODC service ini. Dan biasanya berakhir sampai jam 15.30. Tetapi karena ada saja pasien-pasien yang mungkin terjadi seperti mama, mereka biasa menunggu sampai tuntas.
Dari cara perawat menunggu mama, menolong mama, saya merasa para perawat disana itu sabar-sabar.
(hmm semestinya memang perawat sabar yah, tapi koq kayaknya saya sudah terlalu sering mendengar bahwa seringkali di rs pemerintah perawat kurang sabar, jadi rasanya amazing banget kalo ada perawat yang sabar :p)

Sekarang berlanjut ke harga:
Harga Celsite sendiri sekitar 6jtan. Total operasi +/- 18jt di ODC RSCM.
Dibandingkan dengan RSCM Kencana (swastanya RSCM), yah jelas di ODC RSCM bisa lebih murah sedikit, tapi tak jauh (tak seperti bayangan saya, kecuali anda pemegang kartu jamkesmas yah!).

Hanya saja, yang cukup menarik, sempat membandingkan harga yang diberikan oleh Rumah sakit swasta di Penang, ternyata harga yang diberikan lebih murah (tetapi mempertimbangkan transport dsb, yah jatuh-jatuhnya jadi sama).
Sempat berpikir, dengan biaya yang dikeluarkan sama, di Jakarta saya hanya bisa berobat ke rumah sakit pemerintah, sedangkan di Penang (negara tetangga kita) saya sudah berobat di rumah sakit swasta.
Tidak mengherankan sekali jika banyak sekali orang menganjurkan mama untuk berobat kesana, salah satunya pertimbangan harga yang murah.

Next, soal Obat di Farmasi RSCM.
Kita diresepkan obat dan diminta untuk segera ditebus supaya bisa diminum oleh mama, salah satunya antibiotik.
Datanglah Calvin ke Farmasi RSCM, sesudah menunggu 30menit, tak ada satupun petugas yang melayani, heloooo...... mau bertanya pun tidak bisa, wong tak ada batang hidungnya.
Akhirnya Calvin pindah ke Farmasi RSCM Kencana, heyyyy within 15 minute semua obat sudah di tangan, dengan kemasan yang baik pula, walaupun harga obat totalnya cuman 11ribu.
So so so, tampaknya kalo nanti-nanti ada kebutuhan farmasi, mungkin lebih baik lgsg ke RSCM Kencana.

Oiya, mama terdaftar di RSCM Kencana, tetapi kami dapat memilih untuk dilakukan tindakan di RSCM Kencana atau RSCM Pusat, termasuk untuk dirawat inap di mana. Karena RSCM Kencana hanya menyediakan kamar VIP.

Anyway, sekilas soal pemasangan Celsite dan sedikit review terhadap RSCM.

Update: Esok harinya, pagi-pagi kami ditelpon dari pihak RSCM ditanya bagaimana kondisi mama. Another service yang dirasa sangat membantu.

Swimming Time

We manage to bring Josh out for swimming for him to have his cheerful time with his big brother Adison.

on Sunday 2nd December, a short one but at least I could see his smile, and his act on the swimming pool - relaxing on his swim ring and of course his jumping action ^^/.

He count before jump "six, seven, eight, nine, and jump" - don't know why he didn't count from number one.

Dear Josh: you are such a good son, and we hope you understand that during this cloudy time we hardly to take you out like usual. But mom and dad will make sure that we will have a joyful heart wherever we are.

Love you Josh!

Food for Mom

My mom just point out that she want to do the chemo.
About the pro and cons of chemo, yes we did know it. I will share it someday, why.

Actually from my mom going home, I have been keeping my mom eat the healthy food.
After browsing so much website, counseling with the doctor, and other cancer survivor, my mom came into conclusion that she want to change her eating lifestyle.

No meat, no egg, milk, totally vegan.
Eat raw food, vegetable and fruit.
Eat legumes.

Need time to adjust what will be the most convenience way to prepare it and during the chemo that will be more challenging as many website discuss that my mom will lost her appetite.

So far I has offer to my mom:
for protein - the soy bean milk everyday + legumes.
for vegetable - a lot of nice vegetable juice waiting for her.
for carbo - steam of Taro, Pumpkin, Squash, Potato.
for Fruit - many fruit that could still be eaten, priority: papaya!

But if and if she feel has no energy with all above food, then I said to her that I will gave her chicken stock, white egg, to boost the energy also.
What the most important thing during chemo is our body could took a lot of nutrition for regenerate the good cell.

As God has lead our life till now, He will lead us till the end.

Grandma & Grandson Enjoying the Manggo

After watching the children concert, we went home quickly. Yet we got traffic jam again, as the rain showering Jakarta.

Arrived home, I cut the manggo, and while both of them enjoyed it, I took their picture, funny to watched them doing the same motion :p.

Children Concert 24 November 2012 - Aula Simfonia Jakarta

So glad that we could manage to watched the Children Concert held on last Saturday.

We brought the ticket long ago, and I promise Josh to bring him there.

We went there from Serpong area, need 1.5 hours, as there was traffic jam on the Jakarta outing road *sigh*. Good thing, we arrived on time, have a breath before the music start.

As this was children concert, you may saw a lot of parent bring their child.

As this was children concert also, we should be understand that during the concert some of children might make noise :).

I choose to sit on the balcony, the most upper seat area. Why? Just thought that Josh could do lil bit movement if he get bored. Why other parent might choose the seat near the door, so if the children get upset, they could quickly grab them out of the concert hall.

Anyway, nothing wrong with it, just a preference :).

For half an hour, Josh could quietly enjoy the concert, but for the last hour, yes, he did want to move from his chair. Good thing, he didn't scream :p. He mostly enjoyed when the children sang with a movement, I teaches him to follow it, and he seem to enjoyed it.

Josh - 2 years near 5 months old, hope next year you could enjoyed it more and more.

The seat mostly full when the concert started

P.S. we might think he didn't understand it yet, but it surely left an impression in their life.

Another Phase of Life

Just a few days ago -20th Nov 2012, my mom have the surgery and the result shocking us.

A Cancer?

A deadly word for me.

A spreading cancer - that worsen our feeling.  

Need a few days for me to realized that our days won't be the same anymore. Since my daddy pass away, this the first time I came to felt this kind of miserable separation feeling. 

Need time to cope with it also.

What really calm me down cause I know I have God, while everything happen for a reason.

We still have a homework to communicate with our mommy and encourage her to the next treatment - chemo - another scary word for us considering the side effect. Right now, her condition is good, just bit hurt on the surgery area.

Day ago, I came to think whether we shall fight with the illness (encourage her to fight with it) or we just accept it and enjoy the left days.

But today modern medical exist with a reason right? After reading lot of article, heard a sharing from a similar survivor, I came to conclusion, why don't we gave a try to fight with it, if my mom agree too.

Sooo, hopefully the communication time going well. Pray for it.

Will share more about this.

P.S. I find it's harder to maintain my time with Josh now. I just started our own activity schedule a week before surgery and it's went well, but suddenly all must be postpone for a while.

Remind me that I shall really treasure the time and do the best.

Sleep Sleep

Last week Josh went to grandma house.
During the daylight, the electricity on the area was down.
I asked Josh to sleep on the sofa, brought him the pillow.
Instead of sleeping, he bring the pillow to his toys, and asked his toys to sleep :p.

P.s. on our daily life, children can always make us see beyond the ordinary thing as a moment.

My Family Dinner - 14 November 2012

Sista having her birthday on 11 November 2012, and this year, instead of receiving any gift from us (last year she was showering with the present, but none this year as everybody busy ;p), she plan to treat us.

We went to Pangkep Seafood Restaurant on Pluit Area - Jakarta Utara. (promo 20% off for the opening till end of november, they moving from the food stall on the street into the restaurant - their business grow).
Sista told us to took a picture once the food serve, but again, as we all hungry, we didn't took any till we finished it all *blush*.

 

P.S. While we, adult most of the time try to have the best pose by smiling, the children naturally pose for us which make the picture meaningful ^^.

Mom and Me

These days we been watching closely with our mommy health.

Today, yes today, is the first time I massage my mom back and her feet.
This might be the things my mom did to me many times on my early days.

Wonder why I feeling so different?
From my childhood, as far as I can remember, I been close to my dad more than to my mom.
Why, cause my mom busy with my bro and sista, so most of the time I spent my activity with my dad.
Since daddy passed away on my teenager days, I tried my best to be close to my mom.
Tried to build a communication. That improved better day to day, and I guess I could be more understand of mom's feeling when I became a mommy.
To brought something for her was an ordinary thing that I have done.
But a skin to skin contact is something not easy to build. Like kiss my mom, or hug her is something seem unusual to be done. I guess that may be when I grown up, I have not been conditioned to do things like that.

So today, when I massage her, I could touch her skin, It's very obvious to felt my mom getting old.
While doing some chit chat, not realizing that I have doing the massage for one hour more. Never done this for the long hour and didn't feel any tired at all. Wonder why it be? May be when we doing it with love, then nothing too tired to be done.
Anyway, I wonder till when I could doing this like this.
But whenever the time will come, at least, yeah at least we must always tried to do something better to our parent.
So, have a nice weekend.

Family Day Out

Grandpa accompanied his two grandson for swimming.

Both, Josh and Adison could now be left alone in the children pool and they do have fun together while we watched them from afar.

What a great day for us ^^/.

-Borobudur hotel, 3Nov2012-

Enjoying Street Snack

If you are in Jakarta, don't missed out to enjoy this kind of snack - calling "Putu Bambu" - coconut filled with brown sugar. They sold it with other snack - Putu Mayang, Klepon, etc.

All snack to be eaten with coconut and white/ brown sugar.

We brought it from Pancoran - Jakarta china town.

....Yummy - Yummy - Yummy....

Family's Quote

I have been thinking how I could be a mom of two later on. Then I got below quote:

"No matter how many sibling there are
Every single child is an only child
That's the parent and child relationship."

taken from: 11Nin Mo Iru

Mango Season

Waaaaa, mango everywhere, and Daddy brought so many.....

These two days I tried to make something:

1. Mango chiffon cake - and I failed *sigh*. Will tried to make it again.

2. Mango pudding with mango sauce with little lime squash - hmm Josh and Daddy love it.
 The purpose to have mango sauce -> add natural sweetness to the pudding.

As all my dessert intend for Josh consumption, then I always tried to reduce the sugar or used natural sweet from the fruit.
For the pudding, I didn't add any sugar, so the mango sauce will be perfect for adding a mango flavor ^^.

Will try to make other thing from mango also ^^. Gambatte!

Have a mango day everyone.

Potato Meat Ball

Hehehe, here the potato meat ball for my lil Josh.

Ingredient:

Chicken Meat

Potato (1pcs)

Garlic

Red Chili (1pcs)

Egg (1pcs)

Salt

Pepper

Leek (slice it)

We barely like to eat the chicken meat cooked in the soup. That why, whenever I want to made a soup for Josh, I took the meat out and cook it separately.

What came into my mind, a simple potato meat ball. Why potato? I used to put the flour, but turn out too chewy - bit hard for Josh to chew it and I think potato might be work out for replacing the flour.

I put that all into the meat processor
Then using a spoon make a small ball, and fried it.

Used a stick and make it as Satay (combine with carrot or other veggie).

Served it as a snack or as a side dish for lunch. and....
Josh love it. thanks my lil darling for liking your mommy food ^^.

Josh learn how to eat potato meat ball satay.
oh, please Don't forget to cut the sharpy side of the stick ^^. 

Love the animal?! - Dolphin

I wrote this post as I promise to express my point of view - here.

I have been visit Gelanggang Samudera - Ocean Dream twice in the last three months.

When the first time being there, I'm so enthusiactic on seeing the animal show.
The most awaiting show was Dolphin show.

The purpose might be showing that the animal is a smart creature and we shall love them.

As our first time visit was not too long, honestly I just felt the euphoria for enjoying the show.

But for the second time where I could spent my time from the morning till noon, something came into my thought and some part of my heart feel sad.

Do we, human, could really love the animal through this show? Or we just laugh, make fun of them for escaping our self from the stressful day?

There were:
Variety Animal Show
Bird and Sea-lion show
Dolphin show,
Dolphin and Mermaid show.

For the Dolphin show, there are 3 schedules in a day. For the Dolphin and Mermaid show - 2 times a day and 3 times on the weekend.
Don't know whether the Dolphin is the same one or not.

From what I see, When they could do the attraction, they got the reward (their food).

So, a simple thought came into my mind:
They do the same activities for several times a day, just for human watch their smart attraction, then their could get their reward.

Ok, I didn't know exactly how their trained the animal, etc.

If they are on their nature living, yes, they still need to search for their food.
But since human put them into captivity, they might loss their instinct on their habitat.

Ok, I'm surely not an animal freak lover nor a Greenpeace volunteer

But I do feel, will be more friendliness, more warm-hearted if we could enjoyed their smartness on their nature/habitat, not put them into the captivity and asked them to do attraction.

Walk the Talk - Consistency

Raising a kids might be toughs yet bring you happiness.
When Josh was still a baby, I felt a physically challenge - need to awake on the midnight, struggle for fully breastfeed, facing with the baby common problem, etc.
By the time he grown up,
and now as a toddler, I felt the challenge slowly but sure moved to emotional aspect.

Few weeks ago, my friend borrow a book for me, have a content of key points for handling the kids.
One of them is a consistency of your behavior (between word and action)
Beside the book, whenever I read from article on the internet, I might find the article emphasizing the important of parent's consistency in word and action.

When we are consistent, there will be a trust build on child-parent relationship.
From that, we hope our kids have positive behavior, have a good self esteem, etc. Parent wish the best for their kids, don't we?. We might then put the end of result as our goal and purpose for being consistency.

Saturday Oct 20, We went to a small parent group where discuss about marriage from book (Sacred Marriage - Gary Thomas).
Quote from the Book:
"Bagaimana saya dapat mengatakan kepada anak-anak saya bahwa janji Allah mengenai perdamaian pasti ditepati jika mereka melihat bahwa janji saya sendiri tidak berarti apa apa?
Salah satu alasan saya bertekad untuk mempertahankan perkawinan saya bukanlah karena dengan demikian saya akan lebih bahagia (meskipun saya percaya saya akan lebih bahagia); bukan karena saya ingin anak anak saya memiliki rumah yang aman (walaupun saya memang menginginkannya); bukan karena saya akan hancur melihat isteri saya "mulai lagi" (walaupun memang demikian). Alasan pertama  mengapa saya mempertahankan perkawinan saya adalah karena itu adalah tugas saya. Jika hidup saya bertujuan untuk menyampakan pesan Allah kepada dunia, saya tidak ingin melakukan apa apa yang akan menentang pesan itu. dan bagaimana saya dapat menyampaikan perdamaian apabilsa saya mencari perpisahan?
Analogi mengenai perdamaian ini lebih dari sekedar memberikan tujuan pada perkawinan kita. hal itu juga membantu kita untuk mempertahankan tujuan itu, bahkan saat "kilat menyambar"

(I still haven't had the English book, but you can googling the book and look at the Chapter 2).

Suddenly I thought, will that reason shall be the same with the reason of me as a parent being consistent on my word and action towards my son?
As God is a Faithful God, and God keep His promise.
How could I told my son that our God is a Faithful God and keep His promise if I as a parent do broke the promise?
Through our consistency as a parent, we let the children feel that God is a Faithful God in our life.

I'm still learn how to be consistent and how to practice it on my daily life toward Josh.
Walk your Talk.
Pray may God help us and grant us a wisdom as a parent.

Farewell Grandma

There is a time to meet, there is a time to say goodbye.

First time I met with Grandma, she asked me a question with smile, "Have you eat?, Let's eat"

When Grandma touch our hand, she said that our skin was so smooth.

Remembering the time when we (me and Calvin) stayed with Grandma for a week, there was a day when both of us took her for a morning walk. Grandma remember the path that she usually walk in the morning, we just followed her.

Time did flies.

When Grandma met Josh, she said "sui-sui" - "Beautiful" just to express that her opinion. (But mostly Grandma always told us that we are "sui-sui - Beautiful"

We always heard a good thing from Grandma, that the thing that we will miss and shall learn from our Grandma.

Grandma 3 years ago when we celebrated her birthday.

To our dear Grandma, Ama Coh, May you rest in peace.

Chocolate Chiffon Cake

My best friend having her birthday and I wish to make something more personal for her and I choose to bake a cake.

Last time I made the steamed cake, now I wish to make a light and fluffy one, as Josh like to eat that one too then I choose a Chiffon cake.
Search the recipe online, at the end I select the one provided on Storyofbing blog and do some adjustment.

Ingredients:
A:
5 extra white egg
1/2 cup caster sugar

B:

5 extra egg yolk

1/2 cup milk
1/4 cup vegetable oil
pinch of sea salt (about 1/8 teaspoon)

2 tablespoons water

C:

3/4 cup cake flour

1/4 cup Cocoa Powder

Direction:
1. Combine B, and Sieve the C gradually inside the B until well combine.
2. Used High speed, Whisk A till smooth and soft peak.
3. Fold the Combine B&C into the A, gradually (for not losing too much air).
4. Pour into the Cake tin.
5. Bake it for around 40 minutes on 160-170 C.

Topping:

Melt the chocolate

Pour some milk to make it more liquid

Fruit (Strawberry shall be great choice, but I have none, so I used whatever I have - the Black Grape)

Result:
Josh asked for more, Daddy love it. My friend like it too. Their opinion might bias toward my cake, but anyway, I love to see their expression while eat the cake.

I need to learn how to execute the final appearance ^^. See, I never really plan to bake, I will do it if I have a good mood. Why? when I bake and turn out good, that make me smile even better, but If it wasn't as I expected, at least I won't felt too sad.

P.S. For Josh, I just pour a bit chocolate on the top, but actually he quite satisfied with the cake ^^.

Activity with Toddler - Treasure Hunter

Suddenly I felt I want to do some Treasure Hunter activity with Josh.
(Hehehe, please excuse it if you read a lot of suddenly word on my blog recently. I liked to searched what kind of activity that I shall played with Josh, but somehow the barrier was the material or may be age gap, which means I shall gave up for a while. On the other time, when we just played with our daily stuff, suddenly I could think some activity to played with, then I'm really happy to practice it asap.)

Remember that I made a cheese biscuits last time. I'm using a cute mold which consist of 8 pieces.
So, how about the Treasure Hunter game on finding that 8 pieces cute mold and put it on the treasure box.

Material needed:
Treasure item (i'm using 8 pieces cute mold)
Treasure Box

Here the Step:
* Put the treasure below the blanket, up on the chair, inside the box, inside the drawer, behind the book, anywhere you could think that safe and easy for direction. Don't let kid's saw it :p
* Let him know the one piece of treasure and inform him that he shall follow your direction to find the rest.
* Clearly direct them to find each of the treasure.
* Whenever they found it, sing a happy jingle song, do some hi five, praise them.

Learning Point:
Learn to listen and follow the order.
Learn about space.

Have Fun :)


Update: 7Nov2012
The other day I used the Colour pencils as the treasure. Then today, Josh suddenly hide the colour pencils like I did.
Problem is, when he hide it, we will never find it all in one time searched. So I need to open all the possible place, and try to find the pencils one by one :p.

Green Green Green

Many of us might heard about Ecosystem Conservation or Waste Management - 3R - Reduce, Reused and Recycle. Many of us heard about how to keep our green environment. Heard about the impact of waste into our environment.

The Insentive of 3R:
The 3R’s of reduce, reuse and recycle have been considered to be a base of environmental awareness and a way of promoting ecological balance through conscious behavior and choices. It is generally accepted that these patterns of behaviour and consumer choices will lead to savings in materials and energy which will benefit the environment.
Source: Wikipedia

But How many from us who really applied the waste management starting from our home?

So, These days I really want to practice it on my daily life. If it's not today then when?

What little simple thing that I'm going to do? Ok, I start with the Reduce and Reused and I have no capability at this moment for the third R - Recycle.

Reduce

 * Bring along with you the bag/plastic bag to the Market/Supermarket/Hypermarket.

My experience: On the traditional market, the seller seem to automatically put your belonging into the plastic bag. Even I offer my own plastic bag, they have put on their plastic and then put inside my plastic bag - double plastic. To change a habit is not easy task. Most of the time I still forgot to bring the bag with me, then I just as much as I could on one plastic bag, instead of asking more.

* I barely used the floor cleaner liquid and choose the plain water for cleaning the floor.

The left water, instead for throwing away, I used to watering my plant.

As no chemical on the water (even bit dirty cause cleaning the floor), then I think it's find to throw it on the soil.

* To have a home with many window on the strategic spot became my dream for a long time. Why? I could used the direct sunlight instead open the lamp. -> This surely has to be planned before your home was build/ taken renovation.

Reused:

Oo I found so many boxes, plastic left, bubble wrap when you brought a new stuff. Some of them, I keep it on my garage room till a period of time, till I'm sure I will not used it.

One of the thing that I made was Cover from bubble wrap for washing machine to protect from the heavy rain cause there were open area next to the washing machine. I got the material from the chair that I brought, I cut it and sew it as I want it. I could open the front loading machine without moving all the cover, just need to open the frond cover ^^. Not easy to find what you wish somehow in the market hehehe. So today, when the heavy rain, my machine stay dry.

One day I found out my garage room floor was dirty, due to dust could came in from the small hole.

As we barely came into the garage room, therefore, I used a plastic to cover the mosquito wire. You see the blue tape? I got it when I brought the refrigerator and I removed it carefully so I could used it again :p.

So today, the floor stay cleaner for longer days.

For the Styrofoam left, I make a box cover with wallpaper left and used it.
For the box left, I plan to make something for Josh to played with.

For the daily waste - I separate the plastic and box type with the food waste type on different disposal bag.
I saw that the collecting disposal worker divided the item on the truck. I wonder what kind of thing shall we done to make them easier on doing the splitting task.

Anyway, that just a little thing that I did and I knew I'm still need to learn a lot for being green.

Good day and Go green everyone!

Two Woman and half man

End of Last month, two aunties came and visit us.
One of the auntie could play the piano and she played a happy birthday song for me when I celebrated my first birthday. While the other auntie is Mama's ex-coworker, and they keep in touch till now.
I love to play with them especially if the auntie took me out with her car *hahaha*
Come and visit me again auntie, I will wait for you.

Sunday with Friend - Jakarta Culinary Festival 2012

After reading the Storyofbing blog about the Good Food and Wine Show in Africa, never imagine that Jakarta - Indonesia have the Jakarta Festival Culinary also ^^/ (where have I been going?) for the 3rd time held from 4-31October2012. There were 12 International Talents, and 45 Local Culinary Stars and over 150 performances.
Check the website for more information.

Taken from the JCF booklet: Hope that JCF will promoting Indonesia as a must visit gastronomical destination.
From Wikipedia, I get known -> Gastronomy: is the art or science of food eating. Also, it can be defined as the study of food and culture, with a particular focus on gourmet cuisine. One who is well versed in gastronomy is called a gastronome, while a gastronomist is one who unites theory and practice in the study of gastronomy

But but, I just snip a bit of the euphoria of the Grand Opening Expo (4-7Oct2012) on Sunday *sigh*. Very late to gather more information. Beside, I knew I'm not good at cooking. But I really love watch cooking show. I wish one day I could see a live demo from a chef where I could only seen them from TV before.
For the cooking demo, you shall buy the ticketing.
Anyway, wishing for the next year festival. Hope and hope could enjoyed it more.

P.S. Went there with one of my best friend - Yohana. Love to hang out with her.

Just enjoyed the Ice cream

You could buy a cocktail here.

Looking at another demo.

Dynamic duo sisters.

Amuz Booth, serving the free stuff, see all gone in minute :p

Indonesia Food Corner

Another Demo Stage

One smile can means everything!