A week of Airin Iva Alijaya

Yeay. A week now.
Can't update much last week since we gone through many things.

Today everything can be manage much better.

Have time to sit and enjoy her sleep on my body.

A week Aiva:

- She has a schedule for a day already. Oh amazed. She have jaundice and I need to manage her dehidration every two to three hours. Seem it give impact on how her schedule fixed so fast.

She will wake at 6am for drink
7am-8am usually for sun bathing
8am-9am drink a bit, take a bath, play a while.
9am up go to sleep. Drink.
During her sleep time she can cry if she pup or pee a lot and need us to clean it.
12am wake pup pee. Drink and usually get back to sleep
3pm wake pup pee. Drink and get back to sleep.
6pm-7pm wake pup pee. Play with us. Drink.
7.30pm back to sleep.
9pm asked for Drink pup pee
12am asked for Drink pup pee
6am - repeat again.

Right now she only have once a day bath time.
I still nees to regain my strenght back.

Aiva consume 60ml to 90ml drink from bottle pumping breast milk. And usually before sleep she want to latch on the breast less than 5minutes. But she can also sleep on her own.
If she breastfeed, Aiva only finished one breast at a time. - might around 60ml nowdays. So mommy need to pump the other breast.

Aiva is so clever. Whenever she pup, if we hold her feet up, she will let other pup out.
Then we only clean one all at a time.

Despite many things happen which I will tell in other stories, Aiva seem to understand how I feel and do not add any burden.
She doesn't have a breast confused despite i'm using a bottle in between.
She only cry when need to. Yes she cry very loud and she very strong to kick here and there.
Yet she so sweet, she know mom very tired. She only took 15minutes breastfeed time and go to sleep..

We love you Airin Iva Alijaya.
Proud Parent and Koko, Calvin Erlina Josh.

A new journey for our lil Family

While waiting for the time to come, I was so excited also worried.
Yesterday I could sleep well for a whole days and tonight my eyes still wondering here and there at 1am.
Just another 24 hours we finally welcoming the baby into our hand.

At 35weeks, Doctor confirm the baby was in the correct position.
Then I kept on swimming and do some exercise to gain energy.
Later at 37weeks, Baby suddenly change position 180, became a breech position.
It is any relation as I was born on a breech position?!, erhmmm haven't find any medical conclusion about that.

So here we are, planned for c-section.
18May2019 at 7am

Fuih.... Never been on this delivery mode. So yeah dunno what to do next.

My emotion has been up and down, but I really grateful to have Calvin and Josh beside me. They tend to accept my swinging mode.
Yeah, I have a lot of worried whether I could still take care of Josh as before.
Of course the answer is no, therefore I have big expectation that he could be more independent. However, it such a burden for Josh also. Sometime he cry and other time he said he can do it. I felt terrible but also feel proud whenever he could do something he didn't before.

He manage to put the bed case without my help at all. He also learn to be responsible for his schedule. Help me to carried the laundry. He learn his school subject by him self.
Many more... Which usually still need my help.

One of his wish, he want to stay with us in the hospital. And yes, we try to accomodate it, so he won't be left out when we welcoming baby.

Josh always said my stomach is so big. hehehe...
Gonna blow up soon dear Josh.

One of the different thing between this pregnancy and before was my growing intention on baking a cake and bread.
Other thing, my sleeping time is really messy.
Anyway, soon all will change again.
Just accept it and adapt to it. So I won't get any nervous or stress out.

May God help our family.

Green tea mille crepe - squarepan 😋

I really love this youtube channel..

As I want to try this Green tea Mille crepe, I found out I didn't have a round pan.
My cooking digital measurement has gone somewhere.

So I change it to square pan.
While the recipe remind the same juat I turn it into cup/tablespoon/teaspoon.

Here's the recipe. The original one, you can watch on this youtube channel.

A: Crepe
3 Egg
55ml Vegetable Oil
1/4 Cup Sugar
1 Cup Cake flour
2 tsp Matcha
370ml Milk

B: Filling
4.5 tbsp Sugar
4 tsp cake flour
200ml milk
Vanilla essense
150ml fresh cream

C: Top
100ml fresh Cream
2tsp sugar.

D: Sauce
Matcha and Water (look at the channel)

Remembering my lovely friend Deci Deria

Belum sempat menulis sekian lama, ternyata tulisan berikut ini bercerita tentang teman terkasih yang harus pergi mendahului kami yang masih ada di dunia.

Pertemanan kami dimulai dari SMA kelas 1. Saat itu aku baru pindah ke sekolah baru, dengan segala lingkungan yang baru, belum lagi ditambah jarak yang jauh dari rumah. Terbersit kesulitan untuk mencari teman baru. Ternyata ketakutan itu tertepis, teman pertama yang langsung dekat dan kamu berasa diterima apa adanya adalah dengan Deci Deria.

Dari Deci, berkenalan dengan Erfia. Tentu di tengah itu ada Lianty juga.
Tentulah juga terus berteman dengan teman-teman lain di kelas.

Masa sma kelas 1 pun aku merasakan perhatian teman-teman saat Papa meninggal.

Masa dimana makan ice cream cone Mc Donald pasar baru jadi tempat tongkrongan mewah kami.

Masa dimana kerusuhan terjadi dan aku awalnya diminta tidak pulang sama Deci. Tapi karena aku coba pulang dan entah bagaimana supir kopami tidak mau melanjutkan perjalanan melewati roxy jadinya aku pun memutuskan untuk balik lagi dan menginap dirumah Lianty selama seminggu.

Sayangnya naik kelas 2, kami dipisahkan. Deci bersama Erfia tetap sekelas, sementara aku dikelas lain. Sedangkan Lianty sudah berangkat ke Taiwan.
Ah, masa dimana tiap istirahat aku coba mencari mereka dikelasnya, dan rupanya kesempatan ini pula yang membuka kisah lain lembaran hidupku.

Sampai kelas 3 kami tak pernah sekelas lagi. Perpisahan kelas 3 ke Pangandaran pun Deci tidak ikut. Tapi kesan pertemanan dari kelas satu selalu jadi ikatan yang cukup bagi kami terus bertemu hingga masing-masing dari kami menikah dan punya anak.

Ada masa dimana komunikasi seakan terputus. Terutama masa kuliah dimana masing-masing sibuk dengan perkuliahan yang ada. Sempat bertemu ketika Lianty lagi kembali ke Jakarta.

Mulai terjalin lagi saat satu per satu dari kami mulai menikah. Deci juga membantu saat pernikahanku. Buket bunga pernikahanku dibuat oleh keluarga Deci.
Sesudah itu masa-masa komunikasi lebih terbatas karena kehamilan kelahiran Josh.
Bertemu hanya saat Erfia pulang ke Jakarta.
Struggle dengan kesehatan Mama dan WT. Hingga datang undangan nikah Deci. Wah senangnya. Deci pun pindah ke Muntilan dan komunikasi hanya lewat wa saja. Kemudian baru bertemu tatap muka kembali ketika Deci bawa Richard baby ke Jakarta.

Aku datang ke rumahnya di jalan Garuda. Jalanan tempat banyak jual mpek-mpek.
Teman yang lama baru bertemu tetapi setiap bertemu kamu merasakan kehangatan pertemanan kembali - itulah yang kurasakan saat berbicara dengan Deci. Deci selalu menerima dengan tangan terbuka dan itu yang membuat aku tak enggan membuka diri dan bersikap apa adanya kepadanya.
Dia membuat aku nyaman tanpa perlu takut penilaian orang akan diriku.
As usual Deci akan banyak tertawa dan cerita-cerita. Dari pertemuan itu aku juga baru tahu ada pergumulan yang dia hadapi juga. Tapi tertawanya membuat semuanya seakan ringan untuk dijalani. Tawa mu yang lepas selalu membuat sekitarmu ceria.
Kami berpisah saat itu untuk janji nanti bertemu lagi.
Saat pemilu pilkada Jakarta dua tahun lalu pun Deci pulang untuk give her voice.
Tahun berikutnya, Deci selalu info ketika dia di Jakarta. Hanya waktu dimana dia di jakarta, saya tidak ada.

Ah. Mengapa hari ini kau sudah kembali. Kabar yang kuingin beritakan dalam seminggu selanjutnya pun tak dapat lagi kusharingkan dengan kamu.
Aku merindukan tawa ceriamu. Aku akan merindukan sosok teman sepertimu, Deci.
Biarlah kami disini mengingat untuk terus melanjutkan panggilan hidup yang masih dipercayakan.
Kiranya Deci sudah bahagia kembali ke rumah Bapa di Surga.

Daddy Birthday - Merrier March

I want to prepare something to celebrate Daddy's birthday.

To buy a suprise thing is a big no no as my experience told me so.
A nice pant still sit nicely on our drawer after a years...

I knew he want to buy a nice watches since our marriage. Instead brought for him self, he rather buy something for me or Josh.

I didn't make difficult thing.
I have bake 2 types of cake during this weeks plus a kinda failed bread.

An idea came to me at midnight.

A cream puff!
Yes, his favorite one.

I browse the recipe and yipeee.. It's the most simple recipe but also bit tricky.
Here I am, prepare and bake it.
Then I can celebrate Daddy birthday with cream puff as morning breakfast.

Filling - easily mixed whipped cream with ovomaltine.

To add other favorite item - I made soya bean curd. Refrigerate it and eat with sugar ginger sauce.

Happy Birthday Daddy.
Hope you like the simple birthday present.

Our Valentine Day 2019

Today I'm not expecting anything as Calvin was so busy and he might came home late.

I just spent time with Josh in swimming pool and eat some our favorite food - chicken cordon bleu.

I felt tired and fall asleep while waiting for Calvin. Josh keep praticing his piano.

At 7.30pm, Josh call me and I grumble as I still sleepy.
Can't closed my eyes, I walk out, and voilaaaa....

A beautiful flower!
A purple one.
A rare one for me... A tulip

In his busy moment he still try to give me a surprise. Thanks you Calvin.

Josh act really nice, he agreed to take photo with us as many times as I want.
Then he dissapear into his room.
I heard he whisper to Daddy that he want to make a flower for me.
Ooohhh how sweet of you Josh...
I can guess that he try hard to make one from origami.
After a while he asked Daddy to help him.
While waiting for both of them finished another flower for me, I wait patiently typing this post.

Josh came and asked "Mom, what is your favorite Day?"
I said "anyday when I feel happy."
"No Mom. What day?"
Ok, I understand what he mean. Early monring he told me that he didn't like valentine and he didn't like to give a chocolate or something....
Then he saw me happily got the flower and cake. I guess he might think today was my favorite day amongs all.
"Josh, I really like birthday. All of our family birthday, I love it. It's just remind me, the day all of you born."

Josh told me that Daddy love me and brought for me an expensive thing.
"Josh, Daddy just give his best as he can afford it now. Even you just said it, I'm already happy."
"But Mom, I'm still trying to make it for you." (he keep secreat about making a flower).
"Whatever you make I will wait for it. You have try hard to do it, So I really happy for it you dear."
He smile and hug me.
Ooo so sweet of you Josh.

(Daddy forgot to tell Josh that he gave a flower as gift of two, a boy will be a boy, Josh think what shall I give to Mom.. I shall make another flower.)

10th Years Anniversary

Wow. Amazing and be gratefull for this first ten years journey spent.
You might not a perfect person but you are a perfect husband and father for our family.
All because of His grace.
Sunny and Gloomy day might coloring our family day, yet together with Calvin, Josh and our lil baby, We will stand firm and learn to be faithful to our Master of Life (Lord Jesus Christ).

Spent one night out. The three of us enjoying the time together.
Josh can witnesses and hears our stories how Dad and Mom come together.
As we wish our family growing well in every aspect of christian life. We also wish our child will also have one in the future.

Love 7March 2009-2019

Lunch time

Just the two of us (with baby bump)

Our room

Josh enjoyed his time

Lil fish comes to Josh

Daddy always with his act

Remember this baby bump

Father and Son playing time. Anywhere. Anytime

 

Josh and mom

Morning breakfast

Unique tree

Family