It's been 10 years

 Yes, it's been 10 years since he back to eternal Father home.

Still remember each last moment. But somehow, I couldn't say it out how I still miss him alot. 

People have moved forward, and busy with their everyday life, how dare I bring the memories back. This was made me hesitate.

 Be grateful and try to spend more time with your love one. 💕.

One day, hope we can talk about the old memories without sadness. 

Think of him

  28 August, I miss my brother. He will turn 40 today if he still with us. But time has stop 10years ago.  

Found some old video where he played with Josh.💕

Talk at Night

 My 14 years old son is soft hearted. He can cry and laugh easily to any stories.

When his day full with excited things, he could talk in his sleep.

Like today, when I lay the blanket, he suddenly awake and want to hug, and say "itu oke" with smile and get back to sleep again 😄.

It made me wonder, when he left home, I think I will cried a river 🥹, I'll miss this moment.

As a mother during his teen life, I fail so many times mostly on how I react to his decision and behavior. 

Today, I heard that he found this blog and he read it also. I think I shall wrote about Ai also ☺️, so one day they can look back at their childhood stories.

want to focus on enjoying each moment with him. May God help me. 

Welcoming 2022

Day by day keep passing.

I look forward to keep being a better person.

This 2022, as my picture said, one a time, consistently reducing unnecessary consumption.

Keep remember, this is my Father world.

I like my child still live in a good environment.

Start with us today. Pass to our children tomorrow.

 

Is there anything that you miss now?

Looking back, I always told Calvin that once a year, I wish to enjoy nature, the thing that I couldn't do much in this area.

I also told him, wish when we grow old, we could live in the countryside.

But nowadays, can I still dare to hope, while life is so vulnerable.

though I learn my only hope is on God, yes, when I read those sad news everyday, make me broke.

I just pray that God give me time to live as a family.

 

Already end of June 2021

 Time flies.....

Yet we can't meet friend and relative as we done before

Here some of Aiva picture.

She grown up.

Aiva 8Oct2020

 Sudah belajar gosok gigi. Dan dan dannnnnn making some mess dipagi hari pas mama lagi mau buat donut, lihat muka senyum nya... oh noooo 😆. Susah marah kalo dah gitu.

Lil Aiva injury before birthday

Just two weeks before her first birthday, she got two injury. FIrst while she holding a box and then she fall down on the paper box and her eyes got hit. Sigh.. it's bleeding and fortunately all healed within 4days. 

Only 4days apart, she again got injured on the mouth. That afternoon, she is not using diapers. When she pee on the floor, she want to touch it, and she lost her balance and fall on the mouth. It's bleeding and I get panic thinking she might lost her new teeth. But then God is good, giving me and idea of how treating injured area. I cut the cold watermelon and let her bite it. Yes, the cold watermelon help compress and within two day, only left a ulcer inside upper mouth.

Aiva.... seriously, you got so much before your first year. More than koko Josh. Sigh.... we shall take care of you better. 

Love

Josh my lovely son

Selama masa home learning ini, begitu banyak hal yang terjadi. Tak selalu gembira, banyak argumen, tapi terus belajar bersyukur.
Mama banyak sekali kekurangannya, ketidaksabaran in the lowest point.
Get involved dengan segala tugas sekolahnya.

Namun saat sedang letih letihnya, mama yang lagi berkaca bilang, i look like your grandma instead of your momma. Sudah banyak rambut putihnya nih, makin banyak.
He said noooo, you are my momma.
But hey look, it's anoot of grey hair. I grow old.
He suddenly wake from bed and walk over me and he give me a back hug. He said, you are my lovely mom.
Huaaa Siapa yang tidak meleleh. Aku balik memeluknya dan bilang thanks you Josh for your kind word and your love for me.

Family Fun Day at Josh's school

Saturday, we all went to celebrate Family Fun Day at School.
Actually there a lot of activities, but Josh afraid his lil sista might not be able to stay a long time at school. Josh pick making pizza for him, photo booth for all of us and blood donor for daddy.
Thanks u Josh for your sweet heart.

Next time we will participate more.

Family Dinner Time 16/02/2020

Tonight Akong Ama came and having a dinner with us.
Josh was not feeling well and yet he still behave nicely.

Aiva 1st Valentine

I love my family.
Aiva bring another joy for us.

Cap Go Meh, The first ever dine out together

Yes, we barely celebrate Cap Go Meh
But this year, my sista Helen request for having a dine out

Since Aiva has a limited wake up time hahaha, we choose the one close with our home.
At that moment, our uncle stay at my mom house, so we bring him together with us.

Some of the picture to remind me of the moment

Slow Mo Video Josh and Aiva

Never used a slow mo when shooting a video. But this one turn out nice. I love to watch it over and over again. Next I will try to shoot another slow mo video.

Singapore 16-20 December 2019 - Year end trip

Woahhh, memasuki masa 7 bulan, Ai naik pesawat pertama kalinya.
Rencana kepergian kali ini bukan untuk liburan, tapi untuk menemani Papa Calvin check up.
Tapi karena bawa Aiva, akhirnya dibuatlah liburan 5hari4malam, sekaligus bawa Josh untuk jalan jalan melihat kota negeri seberang.

Walaupun dekat, tetapi ini ke 5 kalinya dalam waktu 10tahun. Josh pun sudah lupa bagaimana penampakan kota itu.

Airlines:
Ada promo Singapore Airlines, jadi ini juga yang menjadi pertimbangan selain pelayanan dan kenyamanannya yang oke banget.



Penginapan:
Kali ini coba di apartment Citadines Mount Sophia.
Karena Pho-pho ikut serta, jadi kami pesan yang 1kamar+1sofa bed, dengan arrangement 4Dewasa + 1 Bayi.
Request Baby Crib dan ternyata ini berguna banget buat Ai selama disana. At least saat aku harus berdua saja, Ai bisa kutaruh di sana tanpa harus khawatir jatuh.

Dapur lengkap disertai dengan peralatan masak juga. Cukup untuk aku mengukus makanan Aiva.

Harga + Fasilitas + Letak nya sebanding

Untuk posisi dekat dengan beberapa stasiun kereta. Untuk Bus didepan gedung, convinience buat kami.
Walaupun Mall besar terdekat harus berjalan 15menit, namun untuk fasilitas makanan di depan apartment banyak yang cocok dengan kami.

Place of Visit:
Tentunya Jewel Mall yang terbaru di airport. Ada tempat penitipan koper untuk 12jam dengan biaya pastinya. Tapi banyak juga orang yang membawa tas nya serta sepanjang perjalanan.

Mall di Orchard - berpikir akan seperti apa road light nya. Sayangnya gerimis jadi kami tidak banyak jalan.

Marina square - hmm ini untuk Josh main Nerf. Sayang sekali malamnya kami tidak ke Daerah Garden by the Bay padahal selangkah lagi untuk melihat cahaya lampu. Apa boleh buat Ai agak rewel belum pup, sedangkan waktu main Josh itu tanggung. Jam 17.30-20.30.
Jadi aku dan mama balik ke apartment

Sentosa half day. Josh coba permainan luggage nya sendirian, dia suka sekali.

Kesimpulan:
Dari dua pengalaman dengan Josh dan Aiva, rasanya lebih maksimal jika liburan yang harus berpergian dilakukan saat 1tahun atau sebelum 6bulan masih masa menyusui.
Namun jikalau pun harus pergi seperti keadaan kami, take it easy saja. Apalagi hanya sebentar perjalanan pesawat ke singapore yang sudah sangat established sistem transportasinya dan rasanya sangat nyaman walau dengan tiket ekonomi.
Makanan juga banyak tersedia disana, dan kalaupun Aiva ingin BLW pun rasa makanannya tak medok.
(Ada kali dimana mama beli bean curd minta less sugar dan yang ada dikasih adalah benar benar less, sampai tak ada manisnya hahaha, jd Aiva bisa icip bean curd nya).
Aiva belajar tidur di stroller, karena transport bisa dengan jalan ke kereta, ini membantu banget Aiva terlelap.
The last, yang penting perasaan Mama. Baby really know how you feel 🥰