It's been 10 years

 Yes, it's been 10 years since he back to eternal Father home.

Still remember each last moment. But somehow, I couldn't say it out how I still miss him alot. 

People have moved forward, and busy with their everyday life, how dare I bring the memories back. This was made me hesitate.

 Be grateful and try to spend more time with your love one. 💕.

One day, hope we can talk about the old memories without sadness. 

Think of him

  28 August, I miss my brother. He will turn 40 today if he still with us. But time has stop 10years ago.  

Found some old video where he played with Josh.💕

Talk at Night

 My 14 years old son is soft hearted. He can cry and laugh easily to any stories.

When his day full with excited things, he could talk in his sleep.

Like today, when I lay the blanket, he suddenly awake and want to hug, and say "itu oke" with smile and get back to sleep again 😄.

It made me wonder, when he left home, I think I will cried a river 🥹, I'll miss this moment.

As a mother during his teen life, I fail so many times mostly on how I react to his decision and behavior. 

Today, I heard that he found this blog and he read it also. I think I shall wrote about Ai also ☺️, so one day they can look back at their childhood stories.

want to focus on enjoying each moment with him. May God help me. 

Welcoming 2022

Day by day keep passing.

I look forward to keep being a better person.

This 2022, as my picture said, one a time, consistently reducing unnecessary consumption.

Keep remember, this is my Father world.

I like my child still live in a good environment.

Start with us today. Pass to our children tomorrow.

 

Is there anything that you miss now?

Looking back, I always told Calvin that once a year, I wish to enjoy nature, the thing that I couldn't do much in this area.

I also told him, wish when we grow old, we could live in the countryside.

But nowadays, can I still dare to hope, while life is so vulnerable.

though I learn my only hope is on God, yes, when I read those sad news everyday, make me broke.

I just pray that God give me time to live as a family.

 

Already end of June 2021

 Time flies.....

Yet we can't meet friend and relative as we done before

Here some of Aiva picture.

She grown up.

Aiva 8Oct2020

 Sudah belajar gosok gigi. Dan dan dannnnnn making some mess dipagi hari pas mama lagi mau buat donut, lihat muka senyum nya... oh noooo 😆. Susah marah kalo dah gitu.